Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Please pass the chips, salsa and spray.....

Well - there are some things you just have to write about.  It started out riding the emotional rollar coaster and ended up on the Mexican Train.  At my age, that's a winner weekend actually.  Going to mom's house means I get to have a sample of what my brother and sister in law live through on a daily basis.  We all wear hats so we don't rip our hair out, we also dawn our mittens so we don't claw our eyes out.  Not to mistake this for a mommy bashing - it's just that she hears about 1% of what you say and remembers less than that.  This week when I arrived, she was sorting cards.  Birthday cards, anniversary cards, thank you cards, and yes the majority of cards she owns are, you guessed it, Sympathy cards.  At 82 she has many opportunities to send those out!  My mom is famous for mailing birthday cards to every grandchild, she always gives them the amount of money for the age they are.  I hope I live to be a 100!  Well - except she would be 150 and they might not have a birthday card that reads "Holy Cow You're Really That Old?"  Not a good age to forget a birthday and have to send a 'belated card' or she might not get to the mail in time.  Anyway - cards sorted - projects completed, Grandpa visited, groceries tucked away, and cleaning complete.... Eric, Terri, Brandon, Erin, Gma and myself settled into a FREAKING game of Mexican Train.  Nope - never played it before, but after starting at 7:00 pm and ending at 1:00 am - there is much to be said about the time inbetween.  For starters - playing Mexican Train with Gma is like - a whole new game every time, explaining it wise.  She wanted to put dominoes on every line, the sideways tiles, and always had to have the celestial white train.  I'm certain in all my years of playing games with my brother - I've never heard so much swearing coming from his innocent little mouth.  Someone (Erin, Brandon and Eric) I'm convinced (I know) had beans at some point of the day and there was NOT enough spray in the can to even phase it.  Actually we put the can down and it just kept spraying it was so bad.  Then - we had to put out post-it notes on every line with a train on it so Gma would know which one she could play on.  This made absolutely no difference at all.  So there we were, tired, playing Mexican Train, gassed out of our minds, watching the attack of the killer spray can, swearing, post it noting everything, and totally having the time of our lives.  Eric declared that we would need to always play games more often... So the next night.... we did it all over again.  I heart my family in Mendon.  I loved that on a weekend that started as awful as life is long... it ended with me being reminded that I always have a brother that loves me, a Mom that sometimes remembers she loves me, and a Dad that deep in his forgotten moments of life - held my hand for an hour and a half.  I was raised in love, I will leave this world knowing I was loved.  I will hopefully leave that love to continue on with my children - love one each other.  Because one day, you'll all need a Mexican Train weekend... and I pray with all my heart, that you have enough bathroom spray.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Changes, and Choices, and Screaming Pregnant Women

This past week my work out instructor made a choice to not teach a certain class at my gym anymore.  You have to realize that this particular instructor (Jen) is amazing in everyway.... teaching over 14 classes a week from step, to spin, to peeeeeeelates to kick boxing, to whatever - she's certified to do it.  She's now going to teach other teachers how to teach - how about that for a cool job.  It's a dream of hers, but it came with a pricetag of letting her class go.  She was worried about her class, that's just how big her heart is.  I was very proud of her, she made a choice that involved making more time for her family.  Not an easy thing to do in our world today - making time for family.  She kept saying that to us - and some were upset by that choice - but I was very very proud of her integrity and her devotion to her family.  The world would have us be so busy with the world around us that those that are closest to us suffer.  The other day - my daughter Mandy asked me how I did it... I looked at her and asked - what?  She said - how did you keep it all together with our family.... It was certainly one of those moments you don't allow yourself to have - but coming from one of my children that lived through my parenting... it meant more that she'll ever know.  My mom, is a beautiful person, and I never went without, but she was also a very social person, I rememeber spending a lot of time with Artice, our babysitter.  I made a vow that my kids would seldom know a babysitter.  Now that they are all adults, I miss them so very much.  I miss the noise and the piles of laundry and all of those dirty dishes... wait - what am I talking about?  I miss their spirits in my home.  I thought of the times I said no to the world, because someone had a soccor game, a concert, or a dance recital.  As I get older, those are the memories that play through my mind over and over - because I made sure that they were put there.  As Mandy left the other night, I told her to memorize every moment of this pregnancy, I reminded her that she will be a wonderful mom, and a great protector of one of God's spirits.  She's concerned about the pain of delivery, (I reminded her of my screaming just for fun), but I also reminded her of one special concept:  Maybe it's so painful for a child to be delivered because they are trying to stay in the arms of Christ as long as they can.  I also reminded her, "Hey if you think it's painful now... wait 'till they are teenagers!"  So to my friend Jen, thanks for 13 years of kicking my butt in class, for choosing to be the mother that you are so amazing at, for making 'time' for those that love you, and for still teaching in the morning so I can still come to class.  To Mandy, yo punker kid, is going to be awesome, and loved, and freaking cute.  Enjoy the journey, you only have a few moments in time, and then they grow up and have babies of their own.  (and hopefully I'll still be going to Jen's classes)

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Gosh Freakin' Darnit

It's just cold.  Last night - I had to sleep with socks on - and I have 700 HOT FLASHES a day - so this is very uncommon.  The air is brown, and the snow is brown, and the 20 blankets on my bed are... not brown, but stacked high.  Yes, we do have a heater in the house - but it's not making the grade!  I'm pretty sure that I'll be turning to the last resort... soaking my frozen feetual digits in hot chocolate....   I'm looking forward to a storm on Saturday when it will possibly clear out the Utard Gunk.  I'm certainly a January Depress'ee, and it hits me hard.  So I'm cutting out a huge yellow sun and putting it up in my window to see everyday.  Especially when I'm up at 3 am and - heck - the sun will already be up.  The world is settling around me somewhat..... Ryan started up at BYU again, it's sweet to have a live in Physisist in the house.  The Manda child is delicious with child and has about 10 weeks left.  Her hubby Ryan has gone into Law School World again.  Ashley is busy with her modeling jobs, bridal shots to designer dresses, oh and that full time job in Engineering on the side.  Mike, just needs to come home because it's just not fun having BIG BOB around.  Matt is Amazoning, and Bethany is Speech Pathologing, and Em and Drewski are well, are owning the cutest grandkids ever award, soon to be shared by little Tommy Hawker Merriman in March.  (Loving Elizabeth B in WA for all of her extra loving to them during the week.)  Mr. Hillary designed another part for his chopper.... design to mill to assembly... and me?   Soakin' my toes in hot chocolate... pass the marshmallows.  Cheers on this Gosh Freakin' Darnit cold day.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Finishing Touches

So many memories - so little time and space.  I feel like a blogflop because I am so behind.  I have enjoyed the many comments and visitors to our blog.  Sometimes it's totally spiritual - and the next we're quoting Captn. Sparrow on the Rum issue.  I think that I would just like to post some pictures and let them speak the words I need to say - and then follow up with some closing thoughts.  Although this will be posted days into the New Year - it's literally - and I mean literally the first time I've been able to sit down and play on my new lappy - that my BELOVED kids made sure I had.  (Thanks and big hugs)

Need To Mention Our Turkey Day
Hosted by my Brother and his Wife
In Mendon
Cheers to the Turkies that came - love you all

I missed telling my beautiful Daughter in Law
Bethany - my favorite one by the way...
Happy Birthday - and that I love
every single day you are in my life.
You may belong to your mom - but you
are truely mine in a million ways.
Then... someone special came back home,
this in itself should be a huge individual blog - but
there are many spiritual emotions that I want to
address later on - but for now - here are some
smiles from that moment....
oooo.... and now you see why I do not post
my own pictures without a mask or a plastic nose...

...a quick visit to see Grandma and Grandpa
in Mendon.... (this was a sweeeeeet moment)
still in love
Grandpa lit up like a lightbulb
when Ryan walked in...
he held on for 2 years for just a moment like this
Ryan reported his mission on Dec 26 to our Ward.
Our family from Mendon came.  It was wonderful
to have our family there, and the Merrimans, and
Stimpsons.  It made our Christmas complete.
(Christmas?  Food Poisening... not adding any
photos here - let's just pretend it didn't happen)
We all missed Mike ): and wish him home soon.
Christmas to me can be found in the following
beautiful faces and memories....My Grandbabies,
and my Children and In Law Children...
On Christmas Eve we went to the SL Cemetary
to light our candles on our pioneer ancestors....
and we were locked in....
and it was creeeeeepy.
New Years Eve came sneaking in quietly.
I watched what was left of Dick Clark (: post stroke.
I'm not a fan of NYEve... it's a sad time for me always.
New Years Day - Freakin' Tree Down.
Clean House.
Ready to go into 2011 on
1/1/11
Thanks for coming on board this year.

Looking forward to:
New Baby in the Family in March
Mike home - soon and safe
Finding Nemo
Pretending to do scrapbooks
Rebuilding the Arbor
BYU life for the last born
Skyping from Washington
Survival of the fittest...
Enjoying every moment I can of my
children's lives, grandchildren's lives,
and my parents lives.
Oh - and can I tell you how much I
love this guy?
because there are only two of us,
my brother and I, and I don't think
I could make it through life without him.
Lucky me.

Happy New Year.
Where's the Rum?
WHY is the rum always gone?