The Spontaneous life

So I know that about 5 people read my blog - oh and that one person from the Netherlands.  It's ok - I don't mind - mostly I just wanted to see if I could go a month and post each day.  When I was a Senior at Sky View High (35 years ago this year) I had the most amazing Creative Writing teacher.  Mrs. Pat Clarke.  I had taken my college level English classes (I know you can find at least 15 errors in my grammar)(and I don't care) (:  Her class was right after my Competitive Sports class - in which I would have run, jumped, tackled, lifted, sprinted again and again and maybe improved a tiny bit each day.  I would come into her class exhausted - because I had to be at the school at 6 am for practices and the second round of running, jumping... well you know.  Each day she posted a topic on the board and for the first 15 minutes of class we were to write without stopping about the topic - empty our brains out on paper.... because Apple and HP were not invented yet.  Those are some of my most treasured works of writing.  There I was not an adult but not a child, choices, and challenges, and such a busy life.  It saved me to sit there and write.  Then she would ask us what the most important sentence we had written was, and why.  Some days there were tearful lines, others funny, some life changing.  It was also where I learned of those that took that class with me.  Their inner thoughts, their opinions and goals.  It changed me as a person to be with those people, writing those papers, in the moments of my Senior year.  They were Spontaneous Mini Thoughts.... Mrs. Clarke told me, "One day Nicole, you will be at a time in your life when you will remember these days, and these exercises in writing - and you will once again write in this manner."  Oh how I wish I could tell her the many times it's changed the outlook of my life for the good.  So... you're wondering if these are the real serious thoughts of my mind... no - they are just fun things that came to my mind and once you have one thought - you can't change the topic so I would just write.  But aside from that - in a protected place - I have written again for 15 minutes a day, 35 years later, thoughts that when put down on paper and taken from my mind and heart, have saved me yet again.  Take a moment - write it down - leave it there - then fill your mind again.  One day - my kids will read my journals and I hope they understand me better.  I spend so much time on the history of my family, and I forget that someday I'll be part of that history.  Sometimes writing about the major events of life seem so overbearing and burdensome - it's been fun to just take a moment and write something absolutely, how do I say... um oh ya - spontaneous...

Spontaneous Mini Thought for the ah ha moment of May

so my favorite line of the day was...

 

"You know that show where the guy dies and they are having his funeral and his son decides to play Freebird with his rock band at the funeral and they release a huge white seagull piñata and it accidentally starts on fire as it passes over the crowd and the son just keeps saying JUST PLAY ON, as the sprinklers start up to put the massive fire out?"

My Asian answers no...

My Special Needs friend says...

"Elizabethtown?"

 

Hands down

she wins the prize.

 

Thought of the day:

Make sure they don't

let any flying seagulls

come to my funeral.

Spontaneous Mini Thoughts for the Grandkids of May

Today

I was just

checking on

where my

heart was

wandering

to....

and I

found it

here...

and here...

and here...

 

 and here...

 

I mean I love my kids..

but their offspring...

Take my breath away.

 

Thought of the day:

How about we

start having them

two at a time?

(just for fun?)

(double our numbers?)

 

(I heart you A.E.J.M.)



Spontaneous Mini Thought for the Wet Days of May

 

I knew there was something going to be so strange today when I woke up.  The air was thick with moisture and the moon was ready to let down it's guard, letting the storm through.  At the last minute I closed the windows before I left for work.  Nice sunny day for about 3 hours then the massive clouds rolled in.  By noon - the thunder and lightening and hailstorms hit my town hard.  My cute Paisen at work had just come back to see what was going on and CRASH - the ceiling started falling down and water gushed in through a hole - it went everywhere in that store - it was creepy and frightening and amazing.  We all ran to pull back the furniture being destroyed by the waterfall.  Three interesting things happened...

First - why would we actually try to save that stupid furniture?

Next - Why in the moment of disaster - we all pulled out our phones and took pictures?

Finally - I am a true blue Zamboni operator now - and I actually said the words....

"If you walk through that water again I will cut you.. to my boss.

After our 9th hour with no lunches - our boss loved us and gave

us extra time on the clock.... I call it - a complete wash out.

I only wish 'some people' could have been there to get wet...

it's probably the only shower they may have taken -- like ever.

 

Thought for the day:

Wet clean up on Aisle 3.... and 4 and 5

and all of 8, 9, 10, 14-19, and furniture. 

Spontanous Mini Thoughts for the Memorial Flower Days of May

my hometown - where I want to be eaten by

worms when I die and peak up out of the ground

some days when no one is looking,

and look at this mountain.

 

Happy Memorial Day

Thanks to those that served our country.

and those that created my heritage,

and for all of their stories I hold

deep in my soul.

Spontaneous Mini Thought for the TwentyPoppyeth of May

Anticipation....

it's keeping me waiting waiting waiting...

 

 

but oh so worth it...

 



 

it's my fave flower to watch

Pop out of it's shell.

Oh - and it makes great

Opium...

not that I would know.

really.

I'm really kidding.

really.

 

Thought for the day:

"So - we take flowers to the

dead people's graves and there

those flowers die right?"

The facts of life.

two two two spontaneous mini thoughts in one...... for the Madness of 24/25 of may

WARNING:  CONDENSED VERSION

 

2 hours of sleep in 28 hours

planted 3rd garden

planted over 125 flowers

realized that I've ticked the world off

(apparently)

could literally live at SL Cemetery

might as well... book it now (it's to die for)

because Mendon's is apparently all taken

David's sunflower seeds taste better than Spitz

Chevron Tigers Blood

A little Sunshine Visit for a surprise

I love my mom.

I ache for my family

longest ride home on earth

tears

frustration

up at 4 am for work

Happy Birthday Grandpa Hill

a little thank you shout out

and I'm off to sleep

because I really don't want to talk

about this entire weekend ever again.

 

PS....

Chinese food always looks and

smells better than it actually tastes.

No Pepsi weekend yet again

sucks



Spontaneouzzzz Thoughtzzzz for the 23rdzzz of Mayzzz

It's that time again, the moment that I realize that I have not slept enough to be able to survive this graveyard shift.  The phone rings, the solicitors are out in a frenzy, the dogs are barking, and there are the daily things that need to happen - but sleep is not on that list.  Hopefully, it won't hurt when the "H" key is engraved in my forehead when my head hits the keyboard.  Hopefully, I won't drool and short circuit the computer.  Hopefully the security cameras will not actually catch pictures of the flies going in and out of my mouth as I sleep.   Hopefully I can survive.  I have a love hate relationship with graveyards.  First - no customers to drive you insane - love.   But, second, the creepy nightness of everything, and knowing that everyone is soundly sleeping at home.  Tomorrow - I will continue the zombie hour as I try to function as a 'daytime' person again.  Until then - the inner vampire needs to get into the shower and get to work.  Where I will then solve the worlds problems... one hour at a time.

Thought of the day:

you know.. I'm just too tired

to come up with one.



Spontaneous Mini Thought for the Twenty'nell'th of May

I don't know about your clan... but ours is a movie line quoting kind a clan.  Something will happen when we're all together and we'll all (at the same time) spew out some movie line, and we all die laughing.  I've also noticed on Face book, that when my kids have an issue (happy or sad) one of them will post a movie clip, and we all die laughing.  I love this about my gang of misfits.  I remember Ashley and I were having a tough day and all of a sudden a song came on the radio and I yelled out "TJ!" and, yes, we peed our pants laughing.  (had to have been there)  So in honor of the nonstop wind blowing session going on in our world today, AND the fact that since Saturday night I've had about 12 hours of sleep... I shall post my fave line for my darling chillins and I would like you to do the actions with me now ok?  ok...

"teeaa inna winnnn'

(swaying from side to side)

 

Thought of the day:

Please don't bury me in a log

in the forest and put daises over

my eyes...



Spontaneeous Thought for the Almelo People of May

Hello person following my blog 26 times in the past 2 days, checking out all of my pictures and stories.... My Mini Thought is devoted to you today - because as you can see my blog is public and that's because I believe it's about sharing our worlds with each other.  So - let me know who you are - because I would like to know why you are so devoted to my blog.  Don't be shy - we have full military coverage and 2 bomb creating engineers in the family - we also have a means as to which to find and dismember you if you are a creeper, and hide the body... and that's just the women of the family.  If you would like to let me in on your obsession - I would love to know - perhaps we could all learn something from this.  Although the pictures you are stalking are stunning aren't they?!  Our family is special - and beautiful, and our stories are priceless.  Ok - well maybe not any of them involving Obama.  I would like to keep my blog public - so please leave a comment asap so I know who you are or I will block your sorry Almelo, Overijssel arse.  If it's Angie.. please forgive me (:

 

Thought of the day:

Don't mess with me

Spontanious Mini Thoughts for the Nights of May

 

 

Graveyard Shift

Need I say more?

 

Wait - why the heck is that last picture posted?

He hasn't done a thing - why is he tired?

(Maybe he's busy growing bangs like Michelle)

 

Thought of the Night:

When do you eat breakfast

when you work

nights? 

 

 



Spontaneous Mini Thought for the Family Day of May

If there is anything I would change in this world it would be goodbyes.  Today our beautiful Washington family left to go home.  This week we have captured every single moment we could to be together.  My daughter said she'd put 400 miles on the car just to be to everything.  This trip was extremely special for me.  I spend every minute I could watching my children.  Seeing them as adults, remembering moments when I only dreamed of this time in their lives.  Compassionate acts of love and tenderness, dinners, kites, sticky fingers, toys that go boing, moments of prayer, conversations of future plans and support for each other.  We were a family.  It was a time for our grand kids to be cousins - and actually realize that they were cousins and played together with such excitement.  They looked for each other, and giggled beyond words when they found each other.  It was a time to see my children sitting on a bench together at church for the first time in a long time because of our many schedules and miles between homes.  I loved little grand kids running from grandparent to grandparent in church today - each sharing an exceptional amount of love for each other.  A time to celebrate in law families - and seeing Camille prepare to serve her mission, and acknowledge how close our families are and always will be.  Tonight - my heart is full, and so incredibly lonely for all of them once again.  Sometimes people just don't understand the concept of forever families - in my life - I couldn't ever understand why someone wouldn't want exactly that.  Oh how I love my children - how grateful I am that they are dedicated to this family.  I appreciate all of their efforts this past week (and always) from tending, to dinners, to movies, to just being around each other.  Yes, dad and I got into the car to leave today.... and burst out into tears.  Gomer and I crying in the car - it was quite a sight.  Don't let a moment past this week without telling those children how much you love them - how proud you are of them... they carry our future (Ashley literally right now) in them - leave them with good memories - and good lessons of life.  Give them Good Roots.

 

Thought of the Day:

Please pass the Kleenexes

Spontanious Mini Thoughts for the Suprise of May

If you ask me - there should never be surprises.  No surprise parties, no surprise visitors, no surprise jumping out of the dark at you moments in time.  Why??  Well I'll tell you - I am a control freak.  I want to know where, when, how many and the what for of EVERYTHING in my life.  No surprises.  So when my kids said, "Oh mom - don't plan anything next Saturday at 3 ok.... click ... hang up phone.... I'm all - no... wait.. nope... not... never.... and for one week this tortured me. I can't just say how much this drives me nuts!  To make matters worse - they knew that I would torture their dad by questioning him over and over again - so they didn't tell him either - which made me NUTS.  So today arrives, and I'm allover texting... ok what should I wear, how long will we be.... just tell me so I will relax.... NO - the answer was NO.  Needless to say - all of my kids were in town this week, and they wanted to celebrate Mom's and Dad's day for Del and I.  It was perfect - couldn't have been happier once I knew - relaxed, ate everything on the table at our fave place Macaroni Grill - AND desert was having the grandchildren there - they were delicious.  It's been a wonderful week with them - knowing they were close by - seeing their love for each other - and seeing their lives so blessed because of their incredible devotion to their families and careers.  Their spouses (minus on hot military man) were so supportive of our crazy schedule this week.  To be the parents of these children - to fill up a table - and to listen to all of our conversations... I might just weaken my stand on surprises..... Like any surprise that includes - a new baby or something - I'm all over that one.  Thanks kids for making our day wonderful.  Matt - hope that parking stall gave you your 20.00 back on Free Parking Saturday... der der der.... xoxoxx

 

Thought for the day...

Maybe Dad and I will have more

children - these have been so much

fun... and typing this comment,

will truly make them say...

ewwwwww!

 

Now that was a top night kids

thank you

xoxx



Spontanious thoughts for the Serventinth day of May

I have a hard time - wasting time.  So when it was time to celebrate Ashley's birthday I read through her facebook posts and decided that the best gift to give her was time and service.  She loves to do her own yard work, but her tummy decided that it didn't want that much stress going on in the midsection.  So these fine amazing siblings (Matt - our WA kid was here for a visit) spend the day mowing and edging and digging and planting gardens and laughing at the grand kids trying to help.  I looked at this scene and I felt such a overwhelming love for them - and realized for the millionth time that - they get it... they get the joy and fulfillment of service and love.  I look at this picture of them covered in mud and then I see those smiles, and I know I heard my Heavenly Father say... no, YOU get it.  Being their mom - is the greatest thing I'll ever have the honor of doing.  Proud of their hearts, of their spirits, and of their rotten dirty mouths while they do yard work for a sister that they love.

 

Thought of the day:

I will certainly still mother you,

even though you said that

you've all had sex..

(and that's about how this day went)

 

Love Love Love

Spontaneous Mini Thought for the LeeLee of May

I waited 7 years to have this moment.  It was worth every second.  28 years ago I gave birth to my first daughter, in several weeks Ashley will give birth to her first daughter, and first child.  This is quickly becoming my favorite picture.  I talk to her tummy every chance I get.  I hope she knows how precious her mom is to me.  This birthday, the love of her life is being military awesomeness - but he made sure her birthday was very special even from  far away.  I hope that My daughter sees the amazing opportunity she has to change the world with this little girl coming into her life.  She has great examples in her sister and sister in law - can't go wrong with them as examples.  Soon I will hold her in my arms and tell her the stories of her mommy... and I will tell her that I love her, and that I've waited for her.... just like I did her mom on the day she was born.  Happy Birthday Ashley, you were beautiful then - and totally off the charts gorgeous now.  Hiccup.... Hiccup... Hiccup

(Thanks Manda!)

Thought of the day:
Oh no.... another generation
of me.....
Yikes

 



Spontaneous Mini Thoughts for the Grandchildren of May

adults

doting over

little children

add

pizza salad

and

turn the hose on

remember

to plug in

the

christmas lights

still up

in the back

yard.
celebrating our
weirdness...

 

equals

one perfect night.

 

Thoughts?

Hum.... I'm in love

Spontaneous Mini Thoughts for the Quorum of the 14th day of May

Yes... sorry Bethany, I ripped this right off the hot press for my daily blog.  I know that when people see this they'll say WOW - There's Elder Hales from the Q of the 12!  He's incredible.  But what I see is the family that my son married into.  I see Baka Mark and the Queen Mum.  There's Katrina and her hubby.  I see Camilla who will be leaving in a couple of weeks for NEW YORK for her mission (like totes fave) (and kinda awkward)  Not pictured - but totally present - is Grandma, and she's smiling from ear to ear in this picture (I can see you there - can't you?) Oh, and there is my beautiful Daughter in Law Bethany (eat your heart out world - she's a Mrs. Hillary too!) and there are my little gems - my grandchildren - 2 of the 3.5 (that i know of wink wink)  Seriously - when Matt married into this family - he married way way up.  Our families - just belong together and there is no shortage of love and support from these guys to us - and from us to these guys.  Isn't that how it's suppose to be?  I think so.  Mexican food soon?

 

Thought for the day:

 

Lucky me

I have these people in my life.

(really - I think there's paper work and everything!0

Spontaneous Mini Thoughts for the Poopteenth of Mayhem

One of my favorite quotes in my Stake President's yard at Halloween is a gravestone that says:  Here lies the last dog that pooped in my yard."  I think I loved him more the day he put this out - than any other day.  I don't have a dog - but by the looks of the 'remains of the day' you would think I had a litter of gigantic dogs!  I've actually been working IN my yard and people walk by and LET their dogs stop and poop then keep walking!  One year I put up a roll of poop pouches on the light post by our house HOPING they would use them.  nope.  I've decided that my dad had the best answer.... he kept a loaded BB gun next to the door.  He was a great shot - and only shot rock salt as to not kill or maim the 'precious pet pooping'.  Last week I noticed that the usual additives were on my lawn as I went to take my garbage out.  But as I opened up the trash can - there were 8 little bags of POOP!  I WAS SO EXCITED to be a POOP COLLECTOR!  I actually loved seeing it in there and not on my lawn.  I DO know who's dog it is - and yes - I plan on putting that poop on their front step in case they are just actually stupid and forgot to pack the poop and take it with them.  Now - don't be hatin' again... I'm not a puppy hater - just a people leavin' poop hater.  I think this person has the right idea:

love it - support it - can fling it.

 

Thought of the day:

"Ok - can I rub the nose of the dog walker

that flings his cigarette butt on the grass in the butt?"

 

(not bad - said poop and butt in the same post)

 

Spontaneous Mini Thought for the 11th of Momz

I can still see my mother with her hair all wadded up on a beehive hair-do, then on top of that she would put a little hair piece.  When it blew off the top of the beehive - and sometimes we wouldn't tell her there were leaves and sticks in it - she would just stick it back on.  That hair piece is in the entry way of my house - along with the Princess Lea wig from Star Wars.  My thoughts of my mom right now are more than her thoughts of me.  This is a cruel world sometimes, but both of my parents have 'seen better days'.  I don't live next to my parents but the guilt trip I feel of not being there every moment like my brother and his wife have to be..... kills me on a daily basis.  I can't fix things and I'm a fixer.  I do what I can and it's far from what it should be - but I can't fix that either.  What I can do - is keep some good memories alive in me of her, alive in the things I do, and pass on to others.   I will forever be grateful that she taught me the art of making the table look amazing - even though there wasn't much to eat to put on it.  The power of a giant marigold here and there in the garden - because you had to spread the flowers out.  The smell of clean laundry hanging on the line before her neighbors put theirs up.  The caring moments of giving to others your share without them noticing.  The selfless hours of caring for others needs.  I may have failed you in many ways mom- and everyone else - but I won't fail you on the important matters of life.

 

Thought of the day:

One of my favorite comments I hear is,

"You're just like your mother".

That's the whole point.

 

I love you June Murray Hill Bowen

Please remember just that ok?

 

 



Spontaneous mini thought for May Mom's Eve 10

Yah..

it's like this..

"nomanomanoma nom anom

anonomomomoaonoma"

These are cupcakes decorated like flowers.

I liked them and then I licked them.

Kinda felt super uber special.

It's good to remember why you

went through 1/2 hour of labor

on all for kids...

Thanks Kids - without all

of you...

I would be in a whole lot of trouble.

 

Thought:

If I eat the little pearls,

will I grow a cupcake in my tummy?

(nomamamonoamama)

Spontaneous Mini thoughts for the umtenth of Mayish

You know who my super heroes are?

MY KIDS - so there.

I just went to be Tony Starked at Iron Man 3 (one day I'm going to read this really old post

and will just have returned from Iron Man 18)  I called to check on the preggo with child kid that is alone right now because hubby is being amazing away in the military.  I was feeling like I really missed her and just wanted to make sure she was ok.  So - of course I called her.

On the other end of the phone I hear laughter and loud

talking and random insanity.

"Where are you Darlin?"  I asked...

"At Manda's, Kate and Ryan are coming over too

and we're just going to hang out."

So - how lucky is it to have your siblings care SO MUCH

that in their kinda sad moments in life - they

FIND EACH OTHER?

Super Hero Awesome.

 

Thought for the day:

Siblings - make fun of you at any length,

kill any one that hurts you.....

will paint your toenails while you sleep.

Bazinga

Spontaneous Mini Thoughts for Munchie 9th

Thursday nights are my menu/couponing/pulling my hair out night.  It helps that I can watch Idol Worshiping and Grey's Anatomy though.  I was actually glad that they were able to take Angie from Idol straight into Grey's ER to patch up her broken heart... A.D.D.  let's move on her folks - and we're walking - and we're walking and we're stopping.  Usually - and I say that in the rough form of the English Language, I (at this point of the night - pre-melatonin) I know what we're having for dinner each night and what items I need to buy - it's amazing how beautiful it looks until I return home from work that particular night and slam my head into the pantry door and yell,,,,"What was I thinking?"  It's now too late, too tired, and UN clever on menus so here is what I've come up with.

 

 

Sunday - not cooking - Mom's day

Monday - leftovers from Sunday

Tuesday - Missionary meetings - cereal.

Wednesday - leftovers from Tuesday

Thursday - waffles.

Friday - leftovers from Thursday.

 

So now you know what I'm having please feel free to join me - please bring your own plates and plastic forks as I also will not be doing dishes.  Better get busy cutting out my syrup and cereal coupons.  Oh.. hand cramp... ouch....

 

Thought for the day:

Ice Cream - the breakfast of champions.



Spontaneous Mini Thoughts for Minaj 8th

I know people - don't be hatin' ok?

I have found that I try to find at least one good thing about a person before I bury them.  Well, this may sound like I broke into the sugar bowl and ate it by the spoonfuls (you obviously missed my last post) - but I have some serious loving going on for this Niki Minaj.  I know, I know, I know - there is absolutely no redeeming value in this statement... but... what I have found as I have watched her talking to the contestants on the Idol Worship show is that she is genuine in her comments.  When it's good - you hear about it - and when it's not - she tells you.  Isn't that refreshing?  I've heard better comments about those singing in front of this person than I've ever heard on any season.  Don't get me wrong - she's totally on crack and there are those golden moments of cray cray - but under all of that make up, hair and gigantic 'follllllowing'  (le butt) is someone that has really got something worth saying.  I understand that we have to deal with this...

AND

these are the only pictures I could find of

her actually covering the 'girls' up

BUT

I have absolutely enjoyed watching her

and seeing what she's going to

throw at Maria Carey each week.

(add  one hot tub full of mud)

 

Thought of the day:

"Hey Dawg, I think she's in it to win it"

 

(go Kree)

Spontanious Mini Thought for the Hungry Days of May. Entry 3/7/2013

Please... stop yourself.... do not be fooled by the yummie look of this contraption.... it's fake - well, actually it's real, just really really horrid tasting.  HOW could something so minty beautiful taste like alfalfa?  Husband and I went through a detox a bit ago and now we are on a maintenance plan.  We kicked out the cokes, (what were we thinking... summer is coming and a cold dollar coke... on ice.... and  WHOA.. slow down) and all of the basic crud we willingly put into our bodies.  Now please don't get me wrong - we're not health freaks or super sturdy choice makers - but we now are officially trained in the counting of just how many almonds we can eat, how to cut a taco chip in half, and relish (wait we can't have relish) the sound of a whirling blender hiding the taste of spinach and cucumbers.  We actually feel better.  It's not really about what we are eating (basically those same things that Popeye ate to get those sexy arms) but that we have control over what we are eating.  If you know our personalities - it's TOTALLY about the control because we are freaking control freaks and we are IN CONTROL...... oh my - I may need a banana or something to calm those thoughts... never the less (I put that word in for you Mandy), I actually found my hip bone the other day.  It was frightening - I thought I had actually lost it, but there it was - bless it's little calcium heart.  So if you come to my house to eat, it may look and taste like cardboard, and that's because - it probably is.  Here's to the murdered raspberries, blueberries, coconuts, kale, spinach, almonds, flax contraptions, celery, probiotics, unmentionables, vodka (not - just seeing if you're paying attention) almond milk, and ice we've consumed.  Maybe I'll find my chin one day soon!  Until then - I'll be watching a video on how to do a kip and saying, "ya - like I could ever fling this body that high".

Thought of the day:

Water - it's just actually plain boring.

Put a fish in it for protein.

Spontaneous and tearful Mini Thoughts this 6th of May

Let me tell you about this day....  I can't even post a picture because too many eyes are swollen from tears.  How amazingly proud I am of my kids.  I see their lives taken over by challenges and they stand up after being smacked down and start moving again.  What the heck are you kids made of anyway?  You're freaking amazing!  Today - we send one of our own away again - leaving a trail of tears and worry and anxiety and quietness.  Today I call upon Zoey - to never leave her side, to bark loud, and snuggle with her close and watch over her every single second.  I would also like you to learn how to speed dial my number.  But tomorrow, little girl, as you stand up from this smack down day - you'll stand tall, and so will he, and your tummy will poke out and wiggle and there is a time ahead for great joy and laughter and moments of absolute peace.  As you look around - SEE US - SEE US BEING THERE you two and a half people we love and a puppy.  Because we have some life to live and NO ONE will stop us ok?  Alright now - put those snot rags away now and sleep - because you KNOW those hiccups are coming about 3 am.... Much love to you as miles separate you - but never come between you.

Thought for the day:

 

Bob loves you

Spontaneous Mini Thought for Sunday May Cinco

OK... folks... let's talk about this obsession I have.  The weather.  I'm not really into weather men or women because they drive my NUTS - mostly because they always stand in the way of the 7 day forecast and I can't see if it's a sun or a lightening bolt.  I know I'm obsessed because today on my Mission I told my fave homeless friend to "wear his slicker 'cus it's going to downpour this week!'  He answered,  "Um Sister Hillary, I don't even own a coat, let alone a slicker"  So I gave him my umbrella from my car.  (der der der)  When the kids were little they use to jump on the trampoline during the rain storms.. and yes I won mother of the year when it was actually a lightening storm.  Eh... they lived.  I love my sunny days - but please bring me on a lightening storm.  Preferably when the kids are all safe and sound in their homes and my husband is there for me to bury my fingernails into his arm.  I love the smell of rain right before it hits the area.... ya - you know that smell... pre-wet dirt and grass.  I use to watch the thunderclouds roll into Cache Valley and listen to the echo's of the thunder on the mountains.  I love waking up to the rain on the windows, and seeing the worms crawl out onto the sidewalk as easy prey for the birds.  The water would run down the gutters and the kids in the neighborhood would run out and play in them during the summer storms.  Now and then a stray paper boat would float by.  I just think that God really had fun creating lightening.  By the way... forecast calls for lightening storms for the next 3 days.  Oh heaven...

 

Thought for the day:

My mom use to tell me lightening was

the devil throwing apples in the cellar...

shocking..

(stupid devil)

(Please pass the salsa)  

Spontaneous Weekend Update a bit bigger than mini thoughts May 3/4

Here are the list of words that I have in my brain from the past 48 hours.  Mendon, Mom, yard, Ryan, work, mountains, family, friends, no mice, 2 new houses, Pine trees, shaving, manicotti, sheets, towels, the color blue, forget me nots, lavender, lemonade, frustration, aching, lonely, tears, work, apple trees, apple blossoms, Jake, May Queens, roses, May Poles, small towns, stop signs, Subway, loyalty, son, Willard Bugs, apple wood in the fire pit, long worthwhile talks with my 6'2' baby, popcorn popping, tears again, quiet, green grass, no sleep, Eric, love, brothers, sister in law xox, Missionaries, Sister Bowen, broken backs, laughter, gratitude, prayers, blessings, pine cones, memories, moments of clarity, nieces, nephew, pictures, cellars, hot chocolate, spring, lost, restless, fearful, and blessed.  It was a busy weekend.  It's a longer week ahead. Some days I just don't feel like it all will ever make sense.  And then it does.
 

Thought for the weekend:

 

Mom:  See, I don't have that disease that

I can't remember what it's called.

Dementia... is not only hard to spell,

but to remember,

I think....



Spontaneous Mini Thought - Day 2

Seriously Folks.... it was a 3 am wake up call today for work.

I am amazed that I can sleep standing up at times.

But when I get to work, there is a collection of

other people there - same tired look, same discouraged

feelings of suicide.... ok - well - sort of... we're tired people.

But what I love about those people - is that we are

somewhat make believe family members.

We know about each others lives, struggles, joys,

and shortage of sleep.

They mean so much to me.

They encourage me, and laugh at my jokes,

they share their thoughts and kindness with me.

If I have to totally loathe.... LOATHE... my job...

at least I work with the BEST people around.

And I appreciate them.

They make a difference to me...

and so do you.

Thought for the day:

"So how long do you think it's actually

been in the fridge here at work?

Really?

Let's still eat it."

 

Smile, Say Hello, Pay attention,

Listen - everyday



Spontaneous Mini Thoughts - Day 1

It's tragic.  It's the "I'm hooked on stupid TV shows" season of life.... DWTS Monday Tuesday, Idol/Voice Wednesday Thursday, exhausted by Friday.  Then I don't watch TV again until SYTYCD... I need a DVR.  Why I'm obsessed I don't know because I really don't have time to watch them with my Mission and work and life in general (wait.... as in General Hospital?) - but if I time dinner right at that time - and then of course the dishes afterwards.... just sayin.  I'm now stuck on critiquing almost everything about everyone.  My favorites are the Toll Free number people that call and annoy the sock off of you - I have fun with them.  "I don't think that was your best performance - I mean you meant well but you just didn't sell it like I think America would like you to!"  Usually the line is silent afterwards.  I find that they don't call me back.  TV bad habits are easily broken though.... Until Bachelorette comes on.  I'm hopeless.  My mini thought for the day:  Can you please adjust the antenna while you're up?